Forum: Close to Home
Topic: Real-Life Stories - Share comments on "Peggy - Middle-Class Alcoholic."
Topic Posted by: Close To HomeDate Posted: Wed Mar 18 15:22:22 1998
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Posted by: Stephanie (hardway123@aol.com )
Date posted: Tue Mar 31 20:18:18 1998
Subject: I'm angry & defeated...
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I was treated for cocaine addiction 11 yrs ago and have relapsed on coke 3 times since. But now I have an even bigger problem. I didn't believe that"a drug is a drug" and I thought I could continue to drink. After 2 1/2 yrs of very excessive consumption, losing 2 relationships, almost losing my position in the company I co-created 10 yrs ago, alienating myself from all the people that have loved me and feeling ashamed every morning when I look in the mirror...I have finally realized I was wrong. So now I realize I have to quit. I am afraid I will fail. I am angry and feel cheated that I can't be normal. I am frustrated because I have tried AA before and never felt comfortable. I usually felt more like using when I left a meeting! I don't know which direction to take!
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